So it’s about the time in the year when I decided I wanted to figure out what I was going to do when I graduated. I thought to myself at the beginning of the semester that at Christmas I would figure out what to do with my life. Well…that’s not looking too promising. I’m not stressed out or worrying about it but more than anything I just want to know.
I’ve learned this semester more about discernment and I’ve been praying a prayer of indifference, praying that God would help me not to care where I go and make my desire to follow Christ’s call on my life and make love my primary calling in life be my motivater in where I go and what I do…not make a decision based on what I want to do or what is most fun or easy.
So since I really do have this mindset of indifference I don’t know where to go from here. I have some options and there are some possibilities falling into place possible but I still struggle with fear and really knowing which options are the best…so instead of making this break one of finality and decisions I am going to be seeking. Searching God’s heart and will so that no matter what decision I make I know God will be pleased with me since my heart is seeking His and my desire is that no matter where I go or what I do Christ will be reflected in me, love will be shown and I’ll be in a place where I can better his Kingdom.